Hybrid Rainbow

Aupmu2

lets start with our emotions
plenty to go off of there

and anger burns and burns if you let it
but anger and all your passion

they're just passing passing
thoughts and feelings
that reside in your mind --

-- a temporary, sanctuary
so give life, to what is now

and arent you proud of me universe?
i've taken responsibility for my mind
but if its you i seek approval from
then i'm forgetting what is mine

a crutch is more than useless
when you dont need it
its detrimental

yet those neurons are firing
and connections are made
you're addicted.

while in bed, instead of rest
you will wander, and resort to--

-- a faulty, "what could be"
you designed in your head

arent you proud
arent you proud
arent you proud, proud of me?

and arent you proud of me universe?
i've taken responsibility for my mind
but if its you i seek approval from
then i'm forgetting what is mine

and arent you proud of me universe?
i've opened up and let you in
arent you proud
its win win

I've kept track of what I've eaten since Thursday:
--- also, because of the slew of graduations I have/am supposed to attend(ed), I've eaten (or am going to eat) SO MUCH FOOD. ---

Thursday:     Vietnamese Samich
                   Smokehouse (hotdogs)
                   Cookies
Friday:         Genova Delicatessen
                   Veggie Crossiant
Saturday:     Reception Snacks
                   Butterfly Bistro
                   BBQ Hotdogs and Steak
Sunday:       Genova Delicatessen
                   Reception Snacks
                   Coriya Hot Pot
Monday:      Potstickers
                   Spaghetti
                   Zachary's??

and probable eats --

Thursday:     Antony's graduation dinner
Friday:         Thai Spice for my graduation
                   Graduation dinner?
Monday:      Monica's graduation

shiiiit, I'm full. It hurts.

Last night we went to sleep at 10:30pm. wow.
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anyway, this morning I decided that I should go for a walk before finding somewhere to settle down and work on my case study. I ended up eating at Smart Alex and while looking outside the window I saw a swarm of bees. Like alot of them. They crowded the intersection of durant and telegraph deterring most from the entrance of Noah's Bagels. It was pretty crazy. and funny. Like I saw this girl bike through the bees (she didnt know that they were there at first) and she yelled "aiiyyeeeeee!" haha.

Now I find myself at Naia gelateria sitting here waiting for something to happen... or for me to start my friggin case study.

I'm pretty much done with school. I'm graduating very very soon. Mooothhheerrrrr....fuu..........ck.

somehow today though, I'm in a rather good mood.

Today my mom called me to tell me that they were going to put our family dog (Brandon) to sleep. He had developed a serious infection due to arthritis in his ankles. He could barely walk, and it was just getting sad.

So they did the humane thing and put him to sleep.

I didn't think I'd be that affected by this, but for some reason, I can't stop being sad. I almost feel like crying as I type this. I think we owned that dog for 14-15 years. That's about 2/3 of my life. Shit.

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I miss you buddy.

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In other news, I've decided to try to write in this again and share things that I come across as well as start posting music sketches and things of that nature like I used to.

-Edgar

We have just finished a new song.

you should check our myspace out at - myspace.com/shoesforeveryone

it's excellent.

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in other news, i hate anxiety.

actually, that's not other news. that's THE news in my life. always.

i dont want to be left behind.

everyone needs to slow down.

If you could have one superpower, what would you choose?
Submitted by J.T.

This is everyone's favorite question. My friends and I always have this discussion -- and one of my friends always comes to the conclusion of, "I would want the power of LAND." Which in other words, basically grants the user the power to fall or jump (purposefully) from any distance height without sustaining any physical damage. The power to land safely from anywhere.

The reason why this is such a kickass power when compared to other more traditional powers (like just plain invulnerability, flight, super speed, etc etc) is because if you think about the social and political ramifications that are attached to such general old school powers, LAND is so much more cooler. Land can be used PURELY for personal gain. If you could fly or could lift buildings... I'm sure the military or someone would try to use you for their benefits. Not only that, you'd be an outcast for sure. Lots of people would hate you just for being different. People would hate you for being "better" than they are. Lastly, following Spiderman logic (that is, "with great power, comes great responsibility") it would suck to have lots of power because you couldnt help but feel obligated to save people. If you saw someone in trouble, and KNEW you could stop this trouble because of your immense power --- I mean, you'd HAVE to save them. It's too hard to not. With the power of "land" no one could really use you for anything... and it's not like you have the most accessible powers ever. You could only go out and have fun with it. People wouldnt really hate you, and you wouldnt feel responsible for everyone. It's perfect.

That aside... I really just want the power of flight. My friend is dumb.

i've been so lazy, i know i dont post anything interesting or properly, but who cares.

anyway, i dont know if i like this yet, but i made this just now in 5 minutes. maybe it's good. who knows. (ignore the crappiness and drums)

Something something baker

this is retarded, but man, i'm happy.

that is all.

mimoh soon to be finished.